- Fri Mar 06, 2020 11:30:41 am
#21620
Hello everyone,
I am so honored to be here in the final three, and I’m excited to have the chance to defend my game and answer any questions you have for me. I’m going to start off by taking you on a journey through this season, from my perspective, beginning to end. Doing this required that I go back through my old confessionals and votes, and I’m going to be referencing some of those here for you tonight.
Going back to the very beginning, my goal was to have a tight alliance with two or three other people, and for each of us to have side alliances. I was immediately drawn to Aurora and Lauren, thought that Reem was really funny, and that, and I quote, “Gillian seems nice but a little weird.” It didn’t take long for Aurora, Lauren and I to form a threesome, and we were excited when just a little bit later, Reem and Jacquie approached us about having a five person alliance.
I went into this warily, and as the days went by I began to suspect that Reem and Jacquie were playing the field. I diligently watched the Sharing is Caring and Mess group chats, cross referenced the number of people there to which people were online, and quickly painted a picture for myself of who had an alliance with whom. The sides as I saw them were like this: Reem, Jac and Crystal on one side, me, Lauren and Aurora on the other, and Susie and Gillian in the middle.
In my mind, Reem was already the biggest threat in the game, and it was either her or me. So when I heard that Reem was targeting Jac, I did not believe it. Meanwhile, everyone was still trying to figure out where Gillian and Susie stood. They never talked a lot of strategy with me in my early game, and talking strategy is one of my love languages, so I was having trouble fully trusting them. Aurora was extremely confident that she had Gillian and Susie, but I was not.
Then, we got to the infamous pre-swap vote. Aurora, Lauren and I were originally going to target Crystal, but after losing the competition I suggested we tell Jac that Reem was targeting her, and ask her to vote Reem out with us. Instead of going to Jac like I suggested, however, Aurora went to Gillian, thinking wrongly that Gillian was on our side. As you know, I was on the wrong side of that vote, and Jac went home, leaving me, Aurora and Lauren to go into the swap with huge targets on our backs and, for me, the label as Least Loyal.
So then there was the swap, and low and behold, I ended up on a tribe with Reem, the person I had just tried unsuccessfully to evict. Awwwwwkward. I pretty much grovelled at Reem's and Gillian’s feet, assuring them that I wanted to be girls strong, and that I had deep regret for what happened at the last vote. I said that the whole thing had been Aurora’s idea, and that we had just voted Reem as a safeguard in case Jac had the idol. This wasn’t untrue exactly, but I did leave out the fact that the idea of flipping the votes to get Reem out had been my idea, not Aurora’s. I was thrilled to be in a tribe with equal numbers of boys and girls, and we decided to throw the first challenge in order to give the girls on the other side more time to rally and work their magic.
Going into the swap, I fully intended for Lauren to remain my closest ally in the new tribe. But she started being online less, and Reem more. The boys were never online, showing up an hour before the comps and rarely earlier. If you want to see how I felt about that, boys, please feel free to check out my confessionals later. Reem was always on, however, and the two of us started to bond. Then, in one of the biggest and most important changes to my game, Reem and I decided to make a final two alliance called Fuck All Y’all. The fact that I went from trying to vote her out to being her closest ally in a matter of a few days is evidence of her incredible social game, and my incredible ability to kiss ass.
As FAY continued to bloom, I also made sure to continue building relationships with Gillian and Lauren. I knew that Lauren was wary of Reem, and pretended that I was also. I didn’t even have to lie--I did know that Reem was a massive threat. But she was MY massive threat. And due to our history, no one would suspect we were a pair.
FAY passed its first strategic test with flying colors. At the first vote, 3 out of 4 of the boys received votes, and Ron was so rude in his goodbye message to Marcus that I knew they would never work together moving forward. It was truly a work of art. We even made Wardog think it was his idea to vote Ron out, and he did indeed proceed to vote for Ron. This allowed me to build my relationship with Ron, whose life in the game I had apparently just saved. It wasn’t hard to convince Ron that Wardog had been out to get him, and that we had to turn on him instead of voting Marcus, in order to save Ron’s life in the game. Ron was grateful, and immediately wanted to make an alliance with me, Charlie and Lauren. Of course, thanks to my relationship with Reem, I knew that he was also playing the field, but for me, any connections are good connections if they can be used to leverage information.
As we continued to draw closer to the merge, I made sure to deepen my relationships with both Lauren and Reem. I knew that they would most likely be on opposite sides come merge, and I needed to be able to have multiple options to choose from. Before the merge I had alliances with every single member of my tribe, and I was a driving force in the vote to evict Marcus once the merge happened.
Next came the merge. The girls were down in numbers, but I was feeling pretty good with two different sides to choose from. The women were supposedly going to be united, but I knew that wouldn’t last long.
If I had my choice, I knew that going with Reem would be better for my game than going with Aurora. Aurora was one of the “very threatening” trio I was part of, and it was scarily impressive how quickly she could move when she wanted to change a vote. I needed someone who was cool-headed and wouldn’t go changing things last second on me.
I TOLD the girls that Matty should've been the target for the second merge vote, and instead of listening to me they fell for his cunning manipulation tactic and the girls sank even lower in numbers. I thought Reem was done for that night, I really did. If she and I weren't as close as we were, we would never have been able to pull that off.
Aurora HAD to go home that night. If I had voted the wrong way and Aurora had stayed, it would have been very, very bad for my game. And that’s why, despite deeply caring for Aurora as a person, I had to use my extra vote to ensure that she left. In less than 24 hours I found the extra vote advantage, as well as the hidden immunity idol.
I’m not going to go over every single vote of the merge, but I do want to touch on the Matty vote. Finally, after days of me trying to convince them that Matty was a huge threat, my claims started to gain some traction. On the day he was evicted, I sowed chaos all day, systematically throwing him under the bus to each of his alliance members (AKA everyone) and bringing chat receipts with me. I even created a chain of ridiculous incriminating private chats that people didn’t stop talking about for hours.
The chats were petty, but worked just as I intended them to--they lightened the mood and gave people an excuse to talk to tribe members they usually wouldn’t talk to as much; this day is when I was able to start building my relationships with Randy and Chris, and I attribute that directly to the chats. I convinced Randy that Matty had created the chats himself in order to incriminate Randy, and convinced Matty that Randy had created the chats in order to incriminate Matty, and they continued to fight about this even into tribal.
And tribal. TRIBAL. I’m sorry Matty, but I was dying of laughter the entire time. The boys dogpiled on Matty, repeating all of the things I had told them during our chats, but never mentioning me by name. They came down hard on Matty, smashing their jury management with him to smithereens, and all I had to do was sit back and watch it all happen.
The closest I ever got to being evicted was the week Reem left. If I hadn’t won immunity, I would have had to play my idol correctly in order to stay in the game. There’s a reason I was able to do so well on that particular challenge, and it was because I had built true relationships with almost everyone in the tribe.
When it came to the vote, I had a strong feeling Reem would be going. She was too big of a threat. I could say that I didn’t play my idol to save her because I was sure that Gillian would be the person to do that. But the truth is, I was scared of the target Reem being in the game put on my own back. I voted for Eric to go, but was not surprised by the results.
By this time in the game, my clear final three alliance became Charlie and Gillian. I let Gillian take the lead a bit more here, because after Reem’s eviction she seemed to finally want to start playing. As long as we had the same final three in mind, I didn’t care about which order the others joined the jury in. Letting her feel like she was in control was an important micro-strategy, because it made me into a smaller target at a time in the game when people were finally starting to realize that I existed and might actually be a threat.
My game hasn’t been perfect, but I’m proud of the game I played. I was able to manage many different relationships at once and leverage those relationships for information; I stayed under the radar for almost the entire swap and merge, even after being targeted on multiple occasions for being part of the “dangerous trio”; and I’ve been playing hard since DAY ONE, not just since the merge or since Reem’s eviction. I believe that the two people with me in the final three have both played great games in their own way, but neither of them have played as persistently hard or had game strategies that were as multifaceted as mine. I want to finish by saying that all of the friendships I built with people are real on my end, and I hope that you can see that I voted not to hurt people, but to further myself in the game while protecting my core alliance. I respect all of you, and ask that, out of respect for this game and for my gameplay, you vote for me to be the winner of Stranded in Kuril Islands.