- Sat Mar 07, 2020 3:33:15 pm
#21832
Hi Devens! Nice to meet you!
1- You’re right, we never had a single conversation in this game. This is absolutely partially my fault, though you also never tried to start conversations with me. My honest reasons for not trying harder to develop a good relationship with you were three-fold:
One- It became clear to me early on after the merge that we were on opposite sides of the voting line, and I was hesitant about building a relationship with you because I didn’t want to come across like Matty did to some people-- making friends and building alliances with everyone to the point where you never know who that person’s top alliance really was.
Two- You were never on. I didn’t trust my ability to strategize with you, because I never knew if you would be on an hour before the competition, ten minutes before the competition, or never. I am an anxious person, and the idea of leaving things to the last minute stresses me out. The uncertainty was just too much for me.
Three- Emotional energy. I had fun talking to everyone, but as an introvert it was also incredibly draining. I was confident that I had the numbers for much of the merge, and therefore didn’t see a reason to spend time being fakely pleasant to someone I knew wouldn’t vote with me, only to vote them out later on. This is my weakest excuse out of the three of them, and doesn’t speak well to my jury management, but I’m just trying to be 100% honest with you.
I spoke to most other people in the game, with the exception of Eric. I admit that I found him intimidating and preferred talking to him through Chris the few times we voted together.
2- I honestly forgot you were in the game for a majority of it. Was that strategy, just an oversight on my part, or something else entirely?
Oof. If you had been online more, you would have seen my name constantly up in the chats, because I was on almost all day, everyday, especially in the first ¾ of the season. I was admittedly quiet during tribal councils, which was mainly the only time you were present, so I can see how you would miss me. Being quiet during tribal councils wasn’t entirely a strategy--I had trouble keeping up with all the emoji conversations, and by the time I would come up with something clever to say, the conversation would have moved on. I think where I shined more was in one-on-one conversations. I’m sorry that I didn’t make more of an effort to have any with you.
3. I'll be asking all 3 of you this and I'm sorry if it's redundant or something you've already explained: Tell me one interesting move you made in the game and how it helped or hurt you overall.
I’ve already talked at length about Matty’s group chats and my voting Aurora off, so I’m going to highlight a less visible move that I made, and still believe is worth sharing. Since Gillian keeps going on about me sharing that she had an idol with people, I will address my decision to do that here. Before she was voted off, Reem told me that Gillian had found an idol, and not to tell anyone. Once Reem was voted out of the game, I no longer had my top ally, and was looking to build trust with people who I could work together with to get to the end. Gillian still hadn’t told me about her idol, so I had no reason to tell her about mine. I had heard Gillian’s name brought up multiple times as a target, so her having an idol was vital information, which I decided to share with Ron and Charlie in order to both help gain their trust and help us plan the best way to have this idol played to our advantage. Then Charlie told me that Gillian had come to him about her idol, finally, so I had absolute confirmation that what Reem had said was the truth. Gillian STILL hadn’t come to me though, so I also knew that I was on the bottom of her relationship totem pole and didn’t feel guilty about my decision to reveal her idol. In the end Ron, Charlie and I didn’t do anything with the information I shared, but my sharing that piece of information did accomplish what I intended it to--building trust with Ron and Charlie.
